Depresion and anxiety

And I'm here another time writhing about feelings whit no name, about how this "depresion" just eat me inside trying to go outside of me, I normally think I controlled it, but no.

It is my more long relationship, it fuck me whenever it wants, it told me whenever it wants, it punch me whenever it wants.

And I try to be more than it, I try to ignore it, I try to punch back more strong than it, but so far it makes it's goal, destroy me, really slow, it go step by step, in silence and screaming whenever I don't be prepared, some times it invite it friend "anxiety" that one have a friends whit benefits relationship whit me, some time it live whit me and depresion, some time they make a trio whit me, some time bouth of then just punch me, the real problem is not to be prepared, is when you feel destroyed, when you are feeling shity and they come to your place and play whit yous

Some times I just wake up and they leave, sometimes depresion leave me whit anxiety, other times anxiety leave for a fee weeks and leave me whit depresion, the good times is when bouth leave together, but then I'm there throwing in the floor, just thinking we they gonna come back, and fuck me again